Presence

Yesterday was really something else.

Monday night I dreamt about Billy Jo for the first time in weeks. The time before that was the first time I had any dream. It was of the last weeks of her life and was basically a nightmare.

Monday night it was not of her final weeks, but rather good times. The strange thing is it was good times in the future...she was still alive. What could have woken me up sad yesterday morning... didn't. I enjoyed it. Can't remember much of it, but we were having a good time. 

If that's how it's going to be in the future I look forward to it.

Forward to Tuesday night. I wanted to take Vince to a place Billy Jo loved to go - the sand bar at Capt. Hiram's Resort on the Indian River in Sebastian. We were going to go Thursday night but it's going to be a lot cooler at night then, so we picked yesterday. There was a guy playing acoustic guitar from 6-10. We got there at 6:30.

This is where we knew Billy Jo was there with us. First song as we are walking in was "If I Had a Million Dollars" by the Barenaked Ladies. She loved them and that was her favorite song of theirs. He finishes that and goes right into "Only the Good Die Young". Are you kidding me? Starting to get the goosebumps.

Then... then... the next song he says he's going to try to do but has never played it before. He said he didn't want to disappoint whoever requested it. Well, it was "The Dance" by Garth Brooks. This was a song I suggested for the memorial slideshow during the pictures of the two of us. She thought it was TOO sad and said no.

In case you forgot or don't know them, here's the lyrics:

Looking back on the memory of 
The dance we shared beneath the stars above 
For a moment all the world was right 
How could I have known you'd ever say goodbye 
And now I'm glad I didn't know 
The way it all would end the way it all would go 
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain 
But I'd of had to miss the dance 
Holding you I held everything 
For a moment wasn't I the king 
But if I'd only known how the king would fall 
Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all 
And now I'm glad I didn't know 
The way it all would end the way it all would go 
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain 
But I'd of had to miss the dance 
Yes my life is better left to chance 
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance 

I have a hard time believing this was a coincidence :) - and it made for a great, relaxing, happy evening. The rest of the songs didn't have any REAL connection, but they were all songs she liked. He was really good. I even tried to trip him up and have him play Adele and he did awesome.

If you're ever down around here check him out.

http://dannykentmusic.com/